Invincible

I know I haven't posted in awhile, but as it goes these days I've been quite busy and most of it is due to getting my life back in order and on track with the help of counselors and group which will be starting within the next few weeks with others like myself who WILL understand ME. There's been pure utter bullshit that's happened to me in the past and I now say: So fawking what! I believe everything in life happens for a reason. Whether it be good or bad, positive or destructive that can make you an ambassador or an assassinator... it's going to happen and there's not a damn thing you can do about it, but what I did learn from it all is what you do about it and how you handle it going forward.

I plan on writing some posts soon-ish to continue from where I left off way back when, when I was talking about my life and growing up and what it was like to be ME. When it all started my becoming a transgender along with how it resulted and further and foremost bring you into my world on what it's like, how it feels to be rejected, to not have others understand you and to be bashed and banished as the reject you are and appear to be in the eyes of those that just don't understand us.  

Till then I thank those of you who are following and welcome those that have newly joined. I and your comments are appreciated. Questions I will no doubt answer and ask anything. We all have the choice whether or not to answer, right? But I will to the best of my knowledge.

My stalker emailed me with some very interesting questions this evening and all I have to say is: Darlin' wait and see and read. Those questions will be answered eventually.

I'm posting this song to end this post because I believe, truly do that some can relate and this song gives many of us hope where we feel at times all hope is lost.

Enjoy... Betryal

August 2011

     Hey everyone,

          You know when you find that right person that you have been waiting your whole life for? Well, I have that someone very damn special to me. I was in a very dark place over the last few days. I saw my mate try to take his life and that had scared me to my core. I broke down since that day but I'm still worried and scared that he will one day succeed in doing it. I had told him that I couldn't handle watching him to that to himself for a 3rd time. He has promised me that he wouldn't do it and I believe him. Not to mention that I have head to toe poison oak which doesn't help my emotions right now either..I look like a fucked up Frankenstein creation or a Black Plague vic from the Dark Ages. But I do know that it will take me a little time to get through this emotional hell rollercoaster but as long as I have my dark mate, my soul brother and you all and my family I know that I will make it through..Love you all *hugs everyone* Sweet dreams and Nite...

August 2011

     Hey everyone, I know that I have been slacking a bit but I have my reasons ;) I am in a much better mood for once. I am starting to write again and if anyone is interested in my writing you can find me on Devil's Playground or in my own blog here called Angel of the Night18. No I don't date my enteries either like most people do but then I'm not exactly normal either ;) I don't think inside the box :) I do go bitch from hell from time to time only because I care about those closest to me like my mate, Bullet and a few others. I never do what I'm told to do and you will find me very adventurous but that depends on the situation and everything else ;) But right now I am suffering from a bad case of poison ivy and oak go fig..lol  Before anyone askes no I wasn't frockling in the stuff with my mate. If I had been doing that I would have up inside the body which isn't good either. I am at a point in my life where I know just how much my mate loves me and thanks to a good dear Scotsman he helped my mate to open up to me kso I didn't feel like I had to pull teeth with him lol...But all in all it has been a good week. I am passing my psych class but now I start my 9 weeks of algebra 1 Hell again..So keep your fingers crossed and hope that I pass this fucking damn class so I can get through my next two classes and grad with my Associate's. Love you all passionately *hugs everyone*

The Devils Playground

I just thought I'd get this out there and what other way than to blog it here. Myself and a guy named Erik :winks: run a writer's group. This is basically, mainly where I write my skits, stories and such and post them so that anyone that is a member can read them and so can the members as well. If you're interested hope to see you there and FYI There are no cost or charges. It's for fun and a means of sharing your works and writes. Everyone is welcome.

Here's more detail if you are interested in joining up and the link to get there: 

http://groups.yahoo.com/group/thedevilsplayground/?yguid=330080285

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Hello.

This group is meant for those of you that wish to write. What do you want to write? I don't know it's up to you. Everything is acceptable here from 'G' RATED to ADULT CONTENT STRAIGHT/ GAY/ BI/LESBIAN/TRANSEXUAL FICTION...this is literally an anything goes type of loop. Please be sure to not involve children in any type of improper situations...we are not that kind of group. Please be sure to put the appropriate warnings and labels in the titles of your works. 

Thanks! 

SMORES

By the title you're probably scratching your heads wondering what the fawk is that supposed to mean. Patience! I'm gonna tell yeah in uno momento. Patience, although I lack severely of it is a virtue or so they say. Here's the motley group of us that makes up SMORES :snickering:

S: Sidney (Bullet) Freak on a leash is moi

M: Miles (Bitch Monkey) Watch out for his frying pan and don't mess with my bitch :snorts:

O: Ornery Angel (Angel of the Night) Gotta love her for her attitude when she gets riled up

R: Rabid Rodent (Kail) My Bro and he's whacked, but you gotta love him to death.

E: Exclusive Nat (Natsrochan) I call her this because she's my one and only stalker meant for me and me alone. I'm not sharing her :grins:

S: Sinsin (Hales) She's my own personal Sin :winks:

Can't you just tell that my morbid brain where I don't even wish it on my worst enemy to go has been thinking? But I like being the marsh in the mellow to the group, but half of one side of the smores are missing. That would be the Monkey and the Rodent. Not to worry they'll be back and I'm sure they'll have posts going up to make up for their absence. :tapping foot: Fawk yeah, they better. You might wonder where they are? I'm not at liberty to say. It's confidential and classified knowledge unless they wish to share it with you. I've got it filed under the X-Files. :nods:

Other than that till they get back I want to post one song for me. The first one. The next one is from me to Miles, the third is from me to them both and the last is for them because I'm proud of them both just for who they are and it's also for God as well (He knows who he is :blowing God a kiss: I've chosen songs by the group Def Leppard. Why? Cause I am going to see them live in concert tomorrow and I'm hyped as all bleeding hell!

So guys, get home soon, damnit! :cussing like a trucker going through withdrawals: