Hey everyone,
My Wolf wants me safe. I told him that I wouldn't leave his side and that the safest place for me is beside me...But let me ask everyone this. How much can one person take before they snap? I mean I have taken more than any normal person would take from an ex. But this is no ordinary ex..This bitch is truly psycotic. She has taken just about everything that I brought with me and now is burning it. All because she wants me away from my Wolf. He asked me early this morning why I was still here? I told him honestly that I love you. Normally I would have left but this is worth the battle. I have looked at this type of love my whole life. I have search for this once in a lifetime love my whole adult life and now that I have found it how do I walk away from it? Answer is I can't walk away. It will take the Reaper to pulling me away from my Wolf. And I know now that my time on this realm is almost coming to an end. Reason is this psycotic bitch will try to take my life. Yes I have reported to the local police they do have warrants out for her arrest. I can not get a order of protection because I do not have a place to stay. I know Sid will say different as will a few of you. But I have come to terms with my death but I just want my mate safe before my time to return to the shadows comes to pass. But let me leave you all with this for thought: When you find the love that only comes around once in a lifetime will you be able to pay the ultimate price? Love you all *hugs everyone*
Thursday, September 29, 2011
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
Bulletproof by Mary Calmes
My rating: 5 of 5 stars
I'm blown away, I'm addicted to Jory and hands down this story in the series was totally and utterly epic as always with Mary's books, but J.H. Christ I want more. I mean I just can't get enough and I'll come out and say I was having a really shit day where everything you can imagine was going wrong and Mary? Thank you so fawking much for helping me to laugh more than once, twice or even three times with Jory's antics, sass and just being the adorable, crack-my-arse up character that you've made him to be.
Totally recommend this book; this series.
Monday, September 26, 2011
For Betryal
Some will see a lot of sadness in this song, I, however, see it as a message of hope... The wind will carry us
I tried to translate the lyrics as accurately as possible:)
Always thinking of you, handsome.
Lyrics:
Je n'ai pas peur de la route
I'm not afraid of the road
Faudrait voir, faut qu'on y goûte
We should try, we should taste it
Des méandres au creux des reins
From twists and turns to the hollow of your waist
Et tout ira bien là
And there, everything will be fine
Le vent nous portera
The wind will carry us
Ton message à la Grande Ourse
Your message to the Big Dipper
Et la trajectoire de la course
And the trajectory of the race
Un instantané de velours
An instant of velvet
Même s'il ne sert à rien va
Even if it's not useful then
Le vent l'emportera
The wind will take it away
Tout disparaîtra mais
Everything will disappear but
Le vent nous portera
The wind will carry us
La caresse et la mitraille
The caress and the fire
Et cette plaie qui nous tiraille
And that wound that tears us apart
Le palais des autres jours
The palace of the other days
D'hier et demain
Yesterday and tomorrow
Le vent les portera
The wind will carry them
Génetique en bandouillère
Genetics slung over the shoulder
Des chromosomes dans l'atmosphère
Chromosomes in the atmosphere
Des taxis pour les galaxies
Taxis to the galaxies
Et mon tapis volant dit ?
And my magic carpet says?
Le vent l'emportera
The wind will take it away
Tout disparaîtra mais
Everything will disappear but
Le vent nous portera
The wind will carry us
Ce parfum de nos années mortes
This perfume of our dead years
Ce qui peut frapper à ta porte
What can knock at your door
Infinité de destins
Endless number of destinies
On en pose un et qu'est-ce qu'on en retient?
We put one down and what do we retain?
Le vent l'emportera
The wind will take it away
Pendant que la marée monte
When the tide rises
Et que chacun refait ses comptes
And everyone is doing its accounts
J'emmène au creux de mon ombre
I take on the hollow of my shadow
Des poussières de toi
Dusts of you
Le vent les portera
The wind will carry them
Tout disparaîtra mais
Everything will disappear but
Le vent nous portera
The wind will carry us
Sunday, September 25, 2011
September 2011
IF anyone has ever truly loved someone the way they were meant to then you will understand what I'm about to say. I love my Wolf with all my heart and soul but I feel him slipping from me. He has told me that I won but then why do I feel like I have lost him? I am so ready to cry my heart out but I know that I can't do that. That I must remain strong without any sign of weakness. I just wish I knew what to do right now? I feel like my heart is breaking and I can't stop it from happening. But at least I have the memories to help me get through life. And I stretched out my dark wings and flew for the first time and even though the flight has been bumpy as hell it's wonderful. Now I just await his decision about whether or not he still wants me and it's the wait that kills.
Saturday, September 24, 2011
September 2011
Hey everyone,
Hope everyone is doing alright? As most of you know from reading my last few blogs that I have been going through some serious hell with my Wolf. And all of it is due to his psycot ex. Well, the death threats have ceased for the moment but the name calling hasn't. But I am at a point in my life right now that I don't give two shits about what happens to her. We are just waiting to see what will happen on Nov. 7th, when we go back to court. Then we are going to do what we need to do and bounce out of here. Hopefully he will get only probation for a short term :) Honestly, I wish this stupid fat ugly sow would just leave us alone for the rest of our lives. But instead we have to hide ourselves away just so we can spend some much needed time together without her having to hunt us down or she thinks that we need a constant babysitter so she can be informed about what we are doing and so forth. IF anyone of ever saw her then you all would know what I have to deal with. Right now I wish I was carrying his puppy but I'm glad that I'm not. Sometimes I wonder if its worth all of this hell then I remember just how much I love my Wolf and I can't imagine my life without him so I know that everything that I'm going through with her to be with him is worth the hell that I'm facing and going through right now. Because this type of love only happens once in a lifetime so when it happens to you make sure that you grab it with both hands and hang on for the best ride of your life :) Sounds corny but it is the truth. And now that I have found it I'm going to hang on it with everything that I have.
I have even thought about sending him back to her but then I remember it would be his death sentence that I would send him too. I even told him as much and everything and he was pissed at me but when I get that scared then I don't think rationally or anything I just go on instincts. And that's what was happening while he was apart from me. She had me so damn scared that I was going on instincts alone and everything. But I just needed to work through it all and reach a certain point in my life so I wouldn't have to worry about what she has to say to me or about me. Because I know the truth about myself something she will never understand or that. As I have told her 'If you don't have me figured out by now then you never will' and it's the absolute truth about me. As I have termed myself 'I am a true force of nature. I am also the true Bitch from Hell'. I will broadside you when you least expect it and so forth. But the true Bitch from Hell no one can digest period :) So be ware when you piss me off. I will finish the dance my way and no one will like it ;)
Hope everyone is doing alright? As most of you know from reading my last few blogs that I have been going through some serious hell with my Wolf. And all of it is due to his psycot ex. Well, the death threats have ceased for the moment but the name calling hasn't. But I am at a point in my life right now that I don't give two shits about what happens to her. We are just waiting to see what will happen on Nov. 7th, when we go back to court. Then we are going to do what we need to do and bounce out of here. Hopefully he will get only probation for a short term :) Honestly, I wish this stupid fat ugly sow would just leave us alone for the rest of our lives. But instead we have to hide ourselves away just so we can spend some much needed time together without her having to hunt us down or she thinks that we need a constant babysitter so she can be informed about what we are doing and so forth. IF anyone of ever saw her then you all would know what I have to deal with. Right now I wish I was carrying his puppy but I'm glad that I'm not. Sometimes I wonder if its worth all of this hell then I remember just how much I love my Wolf and I can't imagine my life without him so I know that everything that I'm going through with her to be with him is worth the hell that I'm facing and going through right now. Because this type of love only happens once in a lifetime so when it happens to you make sure that you grab it with both hands and hang on for the best ride of your life :) Sounds corny but it is the truth. And now that I have found it I'm going to hang on it with everything that I have.
I have even thought about sending him back to her but then I remember it would be his death sentence that I would send him too. I even told him as much and everything and he was pissed at me but when I get that scared then I don't think rationally or anything I just go on instincts. And that's what was happening while he was apart from me. She had me so damn scared that I was going on instincts alone and everything. But I just needed to work through it all and reach a certain point in my life so I wouldn't have to worry about what she has to say to me or about me. Because I know the truth about myself something she will never understand or that. As I have told her 'If you don't have me figured out by now then you never will' and it's the absolute truth about me. As I have termed myself 'I am a true force of nature. I am also the true Bitch from Hell'. I will broadside you when you least expect it and so forth. But the true Bitch from Hell no one can digest period :) So be ware when you piss me off. I will finish the dance my way and no one will like it ;)
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