After a lengthy chat with my counselor yesterday and we had spoken in depth, I came to the conclusion with her that since I already note in a booklet for her daily, to discuss weekly when we meet, when something gets to me, that will last for more the 15 minutes in annoyance that I'm not going to carry any of my shit here. I have nothing against anyone's blog that posts their issues, problems or things that they've dealt with that can somewhat be rather depressive, but I've chosen not to follow that path going forward. I want to keep, for me, the blog light and uplifting for most part. I used to be the one to make everyone laugh and always had something quirky to say, always had a comeback for everything and I was the one that you could count on when you were feeling down, to cheer you up. Well... I want that back! I'm going to get that back.
Past events over the last year has hurt me, fawked with my head and thinking along with altering my views of others to the point that, like I had told my counselor, there were those that I had felt sorry for at one time and when they hurt so had I, but I'm not hurting anymore. I feel sorry, sure and pity for them, but I won't EVER let it break me down ever again. Some aren't worth it, yet others are. With everything that's had an impact on me so have my tastes in tunage. I'll post below where my tastes lay these days and what I'm listening to. You want to know what they sound like? Youtube it.
- Karl Wolf - Ghetto Love
- Boyz 2 Men - End of The Road
- Cheap Trick - If You Need Me
- Def Leppard - Undefeated, When Love and Hate Collide
- Foster The People - Helena Beat, Pumped Up Kicks (thanks goes out to Thorny for getting me hooked on this group)
- Hedley - Invincible
- Keel - Because The Night
- Rihanna - Cheers
- Savage Garden - Crash & Burn
- Secondhand Serenade - Your Call
- One Republic - Secret
- Stereos - Butterflies
- Velvet Revolver - Fall To Pieces
- Westlife - What About Now
- Chris Daughtry - Life After You
- Breathe Carolina - Blackout
- Coldplay - Every Drop is a Waterfall
- Craig David - I'm Walking Away
- Evanescence - Everybody's Fool
- Eighteen Visions - Last Night
- Michelle Branch - Goodbye To You
- Plain White T's - Let Me Take You There
- Thriving Ivory (every song of theirs)
- Rihanna - S&M
Many more to name, but that's just a few and they make the top of my list.
I’m more of a lurker instead of a commenter, but I decided to come out from under my rock and tell you that I’m very glad that you’re feeling better. It makes me happy to see that you believe that you deserve some happiness in your life too. I think your strength to persevere over the bullshit is really admirable and I definitely believe that you would be an amazing person to know in real life. Anyway...*blushes* I'm headed back to my rock...Have a great week ahead:)
ReplyDeleteAndi? Thanks for coming out of lurkdom to share those words with me. It's those such as yourself that lead me to believe I can do this and overcome all the hurt dealt on me. My problem is I'm a trusting soul and I don't aim to hurt anyone. I would like to be everyone's friend but I've been more than once bitten and twice shy now. Cute blush :snickering: Have a great week yourself!
ReplyDeleteInteresting list u got rockin there, u most definitely deserve a boat load of good after all that crap nastiness.
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