I'm posting this while I'm in complete tears and devastation at this moment along with my family.
I just received a phone call from my sister who I will not name and if I had already in some post so be it. Last year she took care of this young boy named Mitchel who is eleven years old this year, who two years prior had lost his mum to cancer which left the dad to take care of him. His only son and only child. Mitchel was overweight and because of this he was constantly bullied in school last year and beaten up by bullies who picked on him relentlessly in school. His first day returning to school would have been today. Mitchel's father went to wake up his son this morning to find this poor boy had put a bag over his head and suffocated himself; committing suicide. This was Mitchel's answer rather than returning to a school and facing those that taunted, teased and beat on him for a full year and terrorizing this poor child.
I had met Mitchel on many an occasion when visiting my sis and although quiet and often kept to himself, this young boy was very respectful to his elders, very pleasant to talk to and a joy to be around when he did smile.
Mitchel, I know you can't hear this but I am thinking of you along with my family, my little friend and I hope the angels are carrying you to Heaven. You'll be missed.
This song is for you!
In loving memory of Mitchel who passed away today on this day Tuesday August 6th, 2011.
Short time no see *lol* I have learned that if you think people can change then unless they want to change they won't change. I have been dealing with my mate's ex. She says that she wants to change but she has no signs of changing. I have done a reading on this female and what I saw was a first for me much less say it aloud. I first spoke those words to my mate and then to her. I can do another reading on this particular female and I will get the same reading as I did the first time. She is a stalker with an obessive nature where it comes to my mate. IF I could I would take this female out and quarter her then send her limbs to the four points of the world.
My fingers have been itching to post something all day so here I go...
So many months have passed and it seems these days that time has flown before our eyes and we ask ourselves: Where has the time gone? What have we accomplished? Do we wallow over what's been or go forward and what could be?
I'll be honest in saying that I hardly think about this anymore. I've lost friends and gained a few of them back, but the ones I haven't gained back I have no regrets in having lost them in the first place. Why? Because those few have been nothing but hurtful, spiteful and still to this day cannot let bygones be bygones and they still post and pick at you when you can't be bothered with them any longer. I wonder if they do this just to help them sleep at night. The pain from seeing my friends hurt or hurting is ten times worse than my own pain. If one of these people being hurt is you, don't let them win cause I sure as fawk don't plan to. I don't believe in the whole eye for an eye bit or being vindictive because you'd be no better than they are, back stabbers. I do hold Faith in: what comes around goes around and all that. Fight for what is right... your dignity!
NOW there are new friends I've made who I need them to know how appreciative I am of them. I understand what they're going through and I want them to know that I am there if not in body in spirit and online. Times are tough and I want them and all my friends to know that no matter what ever is happening in your life now that's impacted it negatively, soon shall pass. Like me you've been hurt and that too will pass cause you're strong and you, we, are all winners, they are not. Just believe in yourselves. So chin up, pass go where those fawktards can go to jail instead and beat those odds you feel are against you. Let NO man or woman put you under!
This song is for those of you that need it most and that I care about most. You all know who you are.
When I do get online which seems to be a rarity these days I sift through the blogs to friends I am following and see what's up with them and what are they posting that I might find of interest. Lately the posts I've come across have been very disturbing. To some my heart goes out to them, to others I hurt for the drama and the unfairness they're being dealt with and dealing with that I'm appalled at. I tend to get off track in my musing and hit some that I want to bend over and just laugh because why? Because what's being said is complete contrary to what I know and believe to being the truth and that hurts the most. Now I know why I just stay away and will continue to do so.
What's gets me is how can people be so heartless and so cruel to stomp on others feeling without giving a fawking shit as to the damage they can cause just one person by their actions and their words? :shrugs: Worthless souls in my opinion. What's the matter? The truth hurts don't it? Fawking deal. I've dealt with so much bullshit for months now that I'm fed up and frankly I'm fawking ecstatic not to be part of the bullshit and people's dramas anymore in certain online areas. It's like a breath of fresh air. A means to ending the hurt. A way of finally healing. It's fan-fawking-tastic! Try it sometime!
I have few friends and the ones in my life know about me inside and out and I cherish them with all that I am. They know who they are so names are not needed. I've been open and honest with them from the getgo and I feel a sense of peace having done that because there's nothing and I mean nothing that you can tell them that they won't come back and say that they didn't know that. They DO! They accept the Real Me and in turn they get that same courteous and respect in return.
People and I'm calling them that and being polite for ONCE in my life and not resorting to unkindly terms, have tried to bring me down, make me feel less of a human being than what I am and did their goddamn best to make me feel smaller of a person than what I already am at a height of 5'5. Well guess what? I'm done with it all, I've gotten back on my feet staying away from the drama, the bickering, the pity parties and most of all those that can not accept others for being WHO THEY ARE by saying one thing and when you turn your back pulling a 360 on their words. In truth I feel sorry for these individuals. I'm over it, I'm done with it and I've learned a hard lesson, but I've come out the wiser.
Having said that and it is the long weekend I plan on getting the hell outta dodge and spending the time with my family that's been helping me heal old unwanted wounds and take much need TLC time-outs like I've been doing for many weekends now. To my friends have a great weekend yourselves. You know how to reach me and I will reply to you, otherwise yammer when I get back.
CIAO folks.
P.S. I like expressing what I feel through music and what I'm thinking at that given time or rather this one so I'm posting these songs by one of my all time fav groups.
How is everyone doing? Me I'm doing good..I was starting to turn cold inside a few days ago thanks to my mate's ex. I hope that she will allow the healing to begin on her heart and start to live her life to the fullest and enjoy it. That way my Wolf and I can be happy without her trying to win him back considering that he has told her that he was done with her and doesn't love her like she loves him. Funny thing is my Wolf and I are trying to work on a set of puppies of our own :). Hopefully I'll be able to have them and more if I'm able to lol. I am doing good in my second round of algebra 1. Enjoy this song everyone :)
